12 May 1999, 9:57 A.M. The first thing you noticed was his innocence. He was a harmless, gentle soul. In spite of his imposing size—he stood two feet tall at the shoulder—he radiated warmth and affection. I doubt that he had ever put anyone in fear. Someone, unfortunately, had beaten him, for he flinched when I extended my hand. This never changed, which shows that there are psychological as well as physical scars and that animals, no less than humans, can bear them. When he realized that I meant no harm, he allowed me to rub and pat him. He liked this. It must have reassured him that not all humans are evil. Whether he believed that any are good remains a mystery. He allowed me to clip his toenails and put flea and tick fluid on his back. His hair was short, so he never needed grooming. He seemed annoyed sometimes that I brought only dry food. He would touch my leg with his paw as I left his shed, as if to say, "Aren't you forgetting something?" Every other day he got, in addition to the dry Alpo chunks, a can of soft food. This he relished. I think his teeth may have hurt him, so the canned food went down easier.
I met Huck (as in Huckleberry Hound) on 6 May 1995, the day after a devastating hailstorm. He was wandering, emaciated, near a burned-out house in the wooded area where I take Sophie and Ginger every evening. He had a gaping wound on his leg. He must have thought that I would administer the death blow, and perhaps, given his condition, he hoped I would. Urine ran down his leg when I extended my hand. But I brought food and water instead. He found it, as I expected, and during the next few days and weeks he regained his strength. His wound healed; he put on weight; and his youthful vigor and personality returned. I assume someone abandoned him near Cooks Lane. This person will go to hell, should there be such a place.
The next four years were joyous for all of us. The girls and I had a reason, beyond exercise and the experience of nature, to go to the woods every evening—and we missed only a handful of days in that time. I carried Huck's food and water—seven cups of the former, half a gallon of the latter—in a knapsack that I threw over my back. I eventually built a shelter for him in one of the sheds, into which I put blankets. I also folded a blanket on the wooden floor near his food so that he would have a soft place to lie. Sometimes, when I came early, I would find him sleeping in the sand near the shed—soaking up the sun's rays. He survived four winters and four hot summers in this situation. The summer of 1998 was particularly oppressive, so Huck, being prudent, took up residence in a small shed with a concrete floor. I found him there several times. The floor must have felt cooler to him than his usual resting place.
In March 1998, I discovered, to my horror, that Huck had been shot. The bullet went in one side of his chest and out the other. I have no idea who did it or why. I did what I could for him, such as apply peroxide, but I didn't know whether he could survive it. The high temperature at the time was the mid-forties, and it dipped into the twenties at night. For Texans such as Huck, that is frigid. For several days I had to lift him into the shed so he could reach his food and water. He was weak, but the light of life never left him. Somehow, to my inexpressible joy, the old boy survived. I began to wonder whether he could die, for he seemed invincible. The only lingering effect of the shooting was labored breathing. Huck always ran around like a crazy dog when we arrived with his food. (Sometimes I think I should have named him "Goofy.") This inevitably brought on a coughing fit, often followed by a discharge of phlegm. I told him to settle down, but it was to no avail. That was not his nature. Judging from his behavior, every time I brought food and water was a miracle. In fact, he must have thought that he had died and gone to dog heaven when the girls and I showed up that May day long ago.
Spring and fall were the best seasons, short as they are in Texas. The weather is mild at these times of year, and I spent many a glorious afternoon reading in the woods. I would leave the house early, Sophie and Ginger springing behind me (or ahead, or nearby), and fill Huck's bowls. Then I would plop down a hundred yards or so away, either under my favorite oak or on what used to be a swimming pool deck. Huck would invariably find us after eating some of his food. He loved smelling me. I must have seemed strange to him, a big ape. Perhaps he wondered why I didn't beat him, as other big apes had. He also took an interest in Sophie. He would fawn over her, but Sophie was uninterested. She never snapped at him, however, even when he raked her with his paws in a fit of enthusiasm (or lust). Ginger didn't much care for Huck, so he left her alone. She kept him away from me as I read. Huck took these snubs in stride. Sometimes he would follow us as we resumed our grand loop through the woods. I would turn to see him on the opposite bank of the creek as we crossed for the final time. Tail wagging. Head high. Eyes flashing. Then he would trot back in that inimitable way of his. "See you tomorrow," I would say, and after a while he knew that I meant it.
This story, alas, has a sad ending. Indeed, it has a tragic ending. This past Monday, four years and four days after we met, Huck was mortally wounded in a fight with two chows. I heard an odd cry—an anguished bark—as the girls and I approached his shed. Huck was a silent dog, so this concerned me. When I reached the structure, I saw a brown chow standing over Huck's body. Another chow stood nearby, panting. I rushed over, shooing them away, and found Huck lying in the dirt, bloody but breathing. He was motionless, but his eyes were open. There was dirt in his mouth and ears. I cleaned his mouth out and tried to get water down his throat. His head, neck, sides, and rump were covered with bites, some gaping. The ground showed signs of struggle. Had I arrived earlier, I may have been able to save him; but I came at the usual time. The one thing I could not do is leave Huck, even to fetch my car, for as I stood there the chows returned. They would surely kill Huck if I left him for any length of time. So, with darkness approaching, I hoisted his bloody body, called the girls, and headed for home. If anyone could survive these wounds, I thought, Huck could.
It took an hour to get Huck to my house. I carried him half a mile, up and over the creek, setting him down occasionally so that I could rest. He was limp. When I got him far enough from the chows, I hurried home with the girls. I was drenched in blood. A neighbor, evidently shocked by my appearance, asked, "Are you okay?" I said I was but did not elaborate. I returned with a garden cart and brought Huck to my garage. I cleaned him, put him on Sophie's soft bed, and comforted him. During all of this time he lay motionless, looking straight ahead. I put food nearby and squirted water into his mouth. When I went to bed late that evening, he was still breathing, lightly but steadily. I knew that by morning he would be either improved—perhaps even up and about—or dead.
He was dead. He looked peaceful. My first thought was that he would suffer no more—he, who had suffered so much. At least he died with those who loved him instead of lying on the ground in the chilly, dark woods. Yesterday, heartbroken, I drove him back to the wooded area, and last night I pulled him, still on Sophie's bed, a quarter of a mile to a final resting place. Tonight I will bury him on a hillside near the shed in which he lived. This was his home, his territory, his domain. Whatever he lacked in the way of creature comforts, and there were many, he made up for in liberty. He was a wonderful friend and companion. He taught me much—as much as any human could—about love, patience, gratitude, fortitude, and grace. I will miss you, Huckleberry.
Addendum: I now believe, having read up on the topic, that Huckleberry was in shock. I should have driven him to my veterinarian's office for care. There is a chance, however small, that something could have been done for him. I will never know. I will always have to live with the thought that I failed him. I'm sorry, Huck. Forgive me.